After so many benders, I should be more flexible Stomach growlin at me, but nothing sounds edible Another wasted day, I’m feelin so youthful Oh You don’t like me? Yeah the feels mutual Talking to myself, the dark side annakin Fear takes over, still as a mannequin Panic and anxiety two different things Not a violent person but my mood tend to swing The soda had me leanin, triggers got me fiendin Think long enough, I feel mu willpower leaving Pandemic got me bingin, my favorite way to cope Yes I love soda, my favorite was the coke Hard to stay healthy in a world so sick This is therapeutic, its Why I wrote this Some days I feel hopeful, today I feel hopeless I need me a fix so I can feel focused I feel lost self sabotage winnin Look In the mirror i see my demons grinnin This isolation it makes me feel more alone Mental getaways start to Feel more at home Called out sick, i don’t wanna get up Don’t watch the news, cuz I’m so fuckin fed up Mental health not the best, tightness in my chest Up all night, but it’s hard for me to rest Dread lookin at my phone, put the screen face down Sorry for the lag I just need some space now Please don’t take it personal, my phones on silent Lots of life shit goin on its bad timing Watch yuyu hakusho ordering burritos 5 am at my plug house that’s amigo Gotta take it easy though, sleep is what I need All this doomscrolling and Covid fatigue Intrusive thoughts, I try to pay them no mind I do what I can, take it one day at a time Write in my journal, hope that everything is fine In the meantime I rack another line yeah

Only 9 months, felt like I’ve known you longer We push through obstacles, it makes us stronger Life can be a nightmare but I’m chasing my dreams Escape every weekend needa break and be clean I try and when I fail- you’re the last to judge me At my lowest, You’re the one that has to love me It’s viscous,we tryin to break the cycle Gotta be more healthy, that choice is vital Not getting any younger, Can’t live that life Made lots of mistakes gotta Get that right Enough about me is song is about you 2020 would, been hard without you Hard for me to cope I meant what I said in the you & nuna song Life is tough but we help, each other move along Keepin it strong, but at times we wanna give up lost in the vices, This life we like to live up Similar pasts , it’s made us closer holidays, our faces are so much colder Last year wished we can get sober Gotta keep that demon off our shoulder dedicate this to you,’cuz always there for me When I dislike myself, you tend to care for me Working on past trauma, and it’s buried deep We’re Up all night, cuz we barely sleep We both go through it, it a link that we got Empathize with numbness, we feel it a lot Vice grip vices got a hold on us Yeah it feels good, but takes a toll on us More I wanna let go, the more that I need it This demon stay hungry no choice but to feed it Keep taking L’s, I feel so defeated Try to keep my cool, prone to get heated Ur Compassion for me, is what gets me get by Up for 3 days, gotta rest my eyes Struggle through the week our Best we try Scared to look down from the heights We fly I love to get High but I hate the crash All because I can’t face my past We going through a lot, this years been rough we both gonna make it, we just that tough dedicate this to you,’cuz always there for me When I dislike myself, you tend to care for me Working on past trauma, and it’s buried deep We’re Up all night, cuz we barely sleep