I wrote this song in September 2022: during that time I decided to go to a therapist to get help for my substance abuse problem & was diagnosed with ADHD anxiety & depression- substance abuse issues.
I was relieved knowing I had the other symptoms because it made sense. This was also a time when I realized the consequences for using started to become more apparent & if I didn’t stop soon, things could become real bad and I would hit rock bottom.
This song is about that month, describing me wanting to stop getting high but reluctant to because it’s all I know. I also rap about my experience with ADHD, dopamine being depleted, not wanting to do anything and napping on my lunch break.
lyrics
Hella tired lately need to sleep more
Road to success but im takin detours
Stress got me fucked up, needa decompress
24 hour nap then i feel refreshed
8 hours of sleep? I dream about it
Am i at my best? I really doubt it
Scroll through my phone when i should be sleepin
Back of my head Anxiety always creepin
Like a ninja stealth mode, comin outta nowhere
Should i face my problems?
I dont wanna go there
4 am text the plug shit i wanna go there
its not sustainable i know its goin nowhere
Needa cop me some thizzles, therapy expensive
All the times i party it is excessive
It is what it is, I'm livin my truth
Early 30’s, Asian glow, still in my youth
Needa recharge 10 percent low battery
Needa rest up all i feel is Apathy
I’ll accomplish all this, hopefully one day
In the meantime, nappin on my Lunch break
Hella tired lately need to sleep more
Road to success but im takin detours
Stress got me fucked up, needa decompress
24 hour nap then i feel refreshed
Dopamine depleted, feeling hard to explain
Goals within reach but theyre Hard to obtain
Lack of motivation, chemical imbalance
looked in the mirror, am i wastin all my talents
ADHD, mood swings hella frequent
Swimmin with my demons, over at the deep end
Cant drown em out, sinkin to their level
Grew up like Han Solo, feelin like a rebel
Risky behavior poor Self regulation
Disassociation not much dedication
Physically fatigued, mentally im drained
All this struggle, is how Emapthys obtained
Lackin Serotonin no wonder i Dont smile alot
Not inspired either, always get Writers block
Feelin washed up, not fresh n so clean
At least when im asleep Live in my dreams
Hella tired lately i think to sleep more
Road to success but im takin detours
Stress got me fucked up, needa decompress
24 hour nap then i feel refreshed
credits
from Hella Tired,
released February 4, 2023
Prod. & Mixed by Rymeezee
